...I could easily panic at the thought of only having 4 weeks left! Where have the past 5 months gone?!
Someone said to me the other day 'I couldn't just go to Africa and pick an orphan -- that's awful! I'd want to take them all home!' - obviously I would if I could!
- and as for 'picking' an orphan! - God choose Nathanial to be in my family long before he was even born - as was I choosen to be in my family long before I was born!
I am blessed that God wants me to be this little mans Mum. I didn't 'pick' him! God allowed us to have a special bond so that I would understand that I was to be his Mum. God 'picked' him for me and me for him. Although it's rather hard explaining that to a non-believer!!
I'm sure a lot of people think I'm crazy or stupid - but that's fine - I don't expect everyone to understand - I don't expect people to think that what I am doing is good - indeed I have had a few people tell me that it isnt!
Anyway, once again the adoption stuff has become extremely complication! Putting everything into jeopardy! However, I am still leaving the UK on the 29th June - not sure when Ill be back with Nathanial at this stage - even 4 years is looking like it will take a miracle!!
Please keep me in your prayers as I prepare physically and emotionally to leave home! Its not going to be easy to say goodbye! I thinkg that hardest part wont be leaving the hardest part is not knowing - venturing into a world of uknowns and uncertainties!